Monday, February 10, 2014

Warmth

Sometimes, putting on a brave face is the most cowardly.

Monday, December 30, 2013

Brain freeze

Sometimes your brain refuses to cooperate and freezes. Laughing at the fact that you can't even utter simple words to make a complete sentence.

I have been having a lot of that lately.

Damn it!

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Contention

Sometimes when you think you're not worth it, someone just shows you why.

Sheesh..

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Of hope

I've found that inspiration is hard to come by nowadays. Perhaps its becuase I'm getting older. Perhaps its because of the change I'm going through. Or even the fact that it could just be my limitation. 

Regardless, I'm praying that I am still able to create, imagine and dream. 

While I'm at it, I would also like to pray for my sanity and having the pieces fall into place. There are still a lot of question that needs answering, which I'm hoping that the answers are what I want to hear.

Its selfish I guess but I can only hope.

Cozy grounds

Mark sent me home after some light brunch at Daisy's. If I knew there was brunch I wouldn't have bothered with breakfast and an awkward conversation with a stranger.

This was my home. The place I grew up. As obvious as it was, it never felt that way. I was greeted by my mom who immediately felt like she had to feed me and asking as to whether I'm eating enough. Mothers.

It would be awhile before I could familiarise myself with the space that was my room. It hadn't changed much since the day I left. Mothers. 

She started some small talk about the wedding. I only answered in one liners. Typical. 

I then proceeded to stay in my room and just listen to Sgt Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band, because, well, can you go wrong with any of their catalogs? Typical.

As I lay on my bed listening to John, Paul, George and Ringo, I pictured how we were not too long ago. Of optimistic enthusiasm thinking how we could change the world. Youthful ignorance they say. Hey, ignorance is bliss.

Friday, September 27, 2013

A day out

Bright blue as if the ocean was above
the shine of the sun piercing through
I look down and adjusted my vision
and yet I could not take away it's glow

Her hair short and straight, enough, I guess
her eyes matched the sky, the ocean
her nose not long, not short
leads to the most beautiful smile.

As I look down further
bright line shine outwards
it soons becomes hazy, dizzying
as the color fades from its beauty

I placed my hands on her shoulder
I could sense that my grip was loosening
she turned away slowly as if it was in slow motion
my hands I saw only red
dripping itself down to the earth

I felt a throbbing pain coming from my chest
a sharp edge, deep, piercing
eyes slowly rolled upwards
now on my knees as I watch pavement come

Flashing lights
then darkness soon after
the streets sang loud

"I came to this world with nothing,
and I leave with nothing but love,
Everything else is just borrowed"


I am hoping this to be a new lease and an end to something that has been attached with me for far too long. Along with a song that I would think seems to be a tarantino like choice of song.


Monday, September 2, 2013

Nokhta

Perhaps only in death will you find life.