Kurang relevan

I was thinking about life transitions. How are we different now from a few years ago, or a decade ago or so and so ago. Now when asked about what my goals was as a child I would have replied I didn't know. Okay, they actually asked in malay "apa cita-cita kamu?" and I didn't know what the word cita-cita meant so I replied no.

When I finally knew what it meant after hearing my friends answers, I still couldn't pin point a goal. I have always been a short term person, living each day as it passes, but at an early age I knew what I wanted to delve into. Peer pressures and typical conservative mindset manipulated my thoughts. Ever sense I saw Jim Carrey as a little kid I wanted to be a comedian, or at least something involving arts. My kindergarten years was mainly remembered for all the dances we had to do. One particular event we had done was a dance show at central market. I am ,in my mind anyway, a very shy guy but when I was on stage I couldn't have cared less.

Maybe it was because I was a little kid but something made me feel confident. Just like my love for writing. I feel differently about giving out my opinions while writing than talking in real life. Its a wonder why though. Perhaps its a bit of that freedom I feel when writing and the fact that I can delete any errors. Ha ha. There's this conservative template of answers to the question "apa cita-cita kamu" that most of the people I know use. Accountants, doctors and all other "professional" professions are usually the occupations chosen as answers.

I would think that I'd get these snobby facial expressions if I had the guts to say I wanted to be an artist at that time or at least those quizzical "owh's". People were not ready for answers such as artist, photographers and other "abnormal" jobs and I still don't think they are ready as yet. But perhaps there is a paradigm shift in the mentality of our nation and perhaps these mentality will change for the better.